Day 1 Load

I was so anxious to get started so I rounded up some needles and syringes left over from my first round and mixed up the HCG I received last week from drugdelivery. (Thanks again dd!) I was pretty nervous about the IM shot in the thigh. It wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be and alot easier for me than previously when I tried in the hip. It went so well that I decided to take a B-12 shot also. I got up first thing this morning and decided to go for it. I think it helped that I didn't have a long time to think about it. So I didn't lose any sleep the night before worrying about the injection. Today I loaded with: bacon and eggs, Starbucks fat latte (no skinny for me this time lol), creme puffs, pork chops and red potatoes. I know it may not be the healthiest way to load but it had lots of fat and protein. It's amazing that when you have "permission" to eat whatever you want and however much you want that you can't eat as much as you thought you could. Eating all this made me feel really full and even fatter. I realized that on average I'm not a big eater (although I do have my moments with comfort food on occasion). In fact some days I get so busy that I go all day only having a cup of coffee and then I eat a big dinner. Which I know hasn't helped my metabolism at all. I'm looking forward to feeling better! and losing this weight!

Tonight, my daughter, Hope told me that no matter how fat I get I am still beautiful on the inside. (she whispered the word "FAT" like she was saying a bad word) I know she was trying to make me feel better but you know when a 5 year-old tells you you're fat.....It's because you really are.